"We've got to get you walking again," Tim says.
And just like that, hope walks in.
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| Oh, how I've missed it! |
After 2 months on crutches, I tried to get my prosthesis on.
The socket didn't fit. At all.
Socket fit is finicky, I know. I'd been struggling with it since my earliest miles as an amputee.
Still, I'd been anticipating this moment -- easing my little leg gently into the prosthesis, standing on my own "two feet" again.
Even if it wasn't quite perfect -- I knew it wouldn't be -- it would still be the first step to feeling like my old self. (Well, my old "new" self anyway.)
When it didn't fit at all, I sat on the edge of my bed and cried.
Six days later -- somewhere around Mile 12,145 -- I arrive at Prosthetic Innovations.
I crutch through the parking lot heavily, weighed down by all that has changed.
But Prosthetist Tim isn't deterred. In fact, he seems happy to see me.
I tell him about the fall, and how bruised my leg was afterward.
"It probably looked like your shirt," he says.
I glance down at my tie-dye t-shirt, splotches of blue and purple and gold and green.
Yep. I laugh.
It's good to be back.
Tim gets out his measuring tape and loops it around my leg.
It's still swollen from the fall. Or maybe its shape has just changed from the injury. Whatever the cause, it measures 3 1/2 cm larger than it used to. No wonder my prosthesis doesn't fit.
Tim brings out a pull-bag, a surefire method to get into an extra tight socket. I slide it over my liner.
We try again -- together -- to get my prosthesis on.
For a split second, I think it'll work. (Things usually work here, even when they don't at home!)
But... Nope.
I feel the shadow of discouragement.
"We've got to get you walking again," Tim says.
And with those words, my insides light up.
He has a plan.
He'll make me a new socket. Maybe temporary. Maybe not. One that will fit my leg now, not as it used to be.
The SOONER the BETTER, he says.
I am 100% in.
We go into the casting room.
Wrap my leg in plastic.
Don the funny shorts.
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| Flashback to Mile 2,015. They're always in style! |
The drill is familiar -- and filled with hope.
The cast will become a mold for a test-socket, which'll be modified as many times as necessary until it captures the new shape of my residual limb.
I loved my old socket, with its soft magenta interior and butterfly on the side. It had carried me through a lot.
But maybe letting it go -- at least for now -- is the ticket to move forward.
Socket fit is a multi-step, patience-draining, fine-tuning process.
In my earliest miles with a prosthesis, my dad drove me back and forth to Prosthetic Innovations for fittings and adjustments.
I always felt down beforehand.
And up afterward.
It became a joke between us --
I didn't just get a leg adjustment.
I got an attitude adjustment too.
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| Lucky for us, they were buy one, get one free! |
This time around I know what to expect.
The journey back to "two feet" is not going to be simple. It will likely be uncomfortable, maybe even painful at first. I'll have to rebuild my strength and tolerance.
It will require perseverance, flexibility, and adjustment -- in both leg and attitude. :)
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| Casting is just the first step. |
But I know about first steps too.
And this one feels like a HOPEFUL start.
Walk on,
Rebecca
